A Part Of Growing?
I like being alone. But I hate the feeling that I'm alone.
That's exactly how I feel almost every single time. Maybe it's because I'm still stuck in my secondary school life? Maybe it's because it has been a long time since I've made new friends? I really don't know. I feel that I don't know how to communicate to people. I want to talk to them but I have no idea what topic can we talk about. I miss those times when I could talk to anybody about any topic. Ha ha ha. How silly of me to think that people won't change. I won't change. I mean, everything changes. Last year, I was still preparing for my Prelims and then right now, I'm already in Poly Semester 1. Last month, my mum went for an operation and today, she's at home recuperating. Last week, I was slacking and having fun at home and this this week, I'm busy with the never ending projects. Yesterday, I was staying up late just to edit the template of the blogshop (one of our projects require us to create a blogshop. i know it's just like.. WTS?!) but yes, I stayed up late just to edit those bloody html. What I am trying to say here is that. Everything will change. Whether it's time, age, relationships or feelings, things will change. Some changes will do you good and yes, you'll embrace them. On the other hand, there are some changes that are hard to accept and it might hurt you. You'll miss the past. You'll miss that one person who was once so important to you. But there's one thing in common between a negative change and a positive change. Change makes you stronger. You grow from these experiences / changes . This leads to the end of this rather nonsensical post. Oh well. I just had to.
