Dad, you're the best . you are and you will always be .
oh god .
i shouldn't have " scold " my dad about my brother just now .
it isn't his fault .
afterall, he is my younger brother's dad .
he must be feeling worse than me .
worse than anyone else .
to know that your son is involved in a police case, it is heart-breaking .
after bringing him up for 14 years .
after giving his son all he wanted .
after bringing him overseas .
after working so hard for this family and his son actually did something foolish .
i'm not going to watch movies with my friends tomorrow .
i'm going to come back home straight after school and study .
i guess this is what i can do, best for myself and my family .
i don't want my parents to be disappointed in me just like my younger brother .
i really really hope that he learns his lesson .
i really really hope that he can work hard in both his studies and CCA .
he needs to know that i've been through exactly the same thing he is facing now .
teachers being bias to you .
teachers nagging at you .
giving you so many homework .
giving so many tests in one week .
but, these times are going to pass soon right ?
i think this time is really a wake up call for me .
i need to stop disappointing my parents .
i saw the look on my dad's face upon knowing my younger brother's police case .
i saw it .
he shook his head and kept sighing .
he's blaming himself for not being a good dad to us
i know that he isn't going to read my blog but i'm going to say this :
Dear Dad,
i've let you down . so many times . countless times, in fact . but i'm going to stop all my foolish acts . i'm going to be a responsible brother and i'm going to work hard for my future . i'm going to study hard from this day onwards . please don't blame yourself just because 弟弟 is being involved in a police case . he needs to grow . he needs to know whatever he's doing now isn't cool at all but it's just purely immature . i'm sure he will change his ways and he will change for the better . but it's gonna take quite some time . change doesn't happens in a second, am i right ? give him time . i'm sure he will learn from his mistakes . you're my best friend . you're my best counselor . you're a great dad . i'm proud to have you as my dad . it's just that 弟弟 and i have always taken you and mummy for granted . we will grow, grow much more mature than who we are now .
Your beloved son , Zarc Aster 蔡
