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Today was a really really REAAAALLLY LOOOOOOOONG day for me. It was a normal school day EXCEPT that it ended 1 hour earlier. Lessons were ... Lessons were preparing us for Secondary 5. Which means... Some of the topics get tougher. Le sigh, I'm always so tired during English lessons. Anyway~ School is supposed to end an hour earlier. But thanks to the 'O' Maths Mock Tests and stuffs going on, we are only released at 2+. W T F.
" It's all going to be worth it. It's all going to be worth it. " That's what I say to myself. Heh, I hope so!
Seriously, I think I'm slacking wayyyyyyy toooooooo much. Especially today. "Loitered" around the mall. Uhh. No, I don't loiter. I was, in fact, shopping for 'groceries'. HAHAHAHAHA.
No, I am not lying. I was shopping for the ingredients to bake cookies. HEEEEEEE.
Next Thursday, it's going to be our last day of school. OFFICIAL LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. So, I'm gonna bake cookies and make cards for each and every close friend of mine. Wow. Finally, I have the feeling that I'm going to graduate soon. This 4 years spent in QSS was fun, enjoyable and fantaaaaastic. Hah, 4 years ago, I was wishing that I can get out of this school as soon as possible. Now that I might be leaving this school, I wished that I could stay for a little longer. Whatever it is, we're gonna stay as close friends like Patrick & Spongebob.
the past few days, i've been thinking: " how does it feel like to be normal? how does it feel to be others? how does it feel be a just a normal person?" to be honest, i really want to know how they feel. and yes, i just realized that it has been too long since i've been normal until the point that i forgot how does it feel to be normal. complicated isn't it? read this a million times and you still won't understand because you aren't me. you won't understand.
until i've found that courage, i will do it. what's the point of hanging there? hanging there like nothing.
