All alone or
I've been thinking for a very long time and it all comes back to this question.
Why am I so afraid of being lonely?
I started to think that what if all of my friends were just acting in-front of me. Behind me, they hate me to the core and they pray everyday that I will die as soon as possible. Do I prefer to have friends like that or do I prefer to be all alone? I'd rather be all alone, that's my answer. But when I'm all alone, I will start to feel depressed, sad and feel that everyone dislikes me. Everyone thinks that I'm such a bitch. Still, I'd rather be alone then feel lonely when I'm with my friends.
If you know me well enough, you will believe her. But you'll know that I didn't do that on purpose. You'll know what I kind of person I am. I guess this is a test to see how strong our friendship is. I know that I should believe that we'll make it through this test. However, I still feel that it's going to end. Our friendship is going to end.
